Thursday, March 13, 2014

Lose Weight Fatty Pt. 1

I'm currently reading The Power of Habit (2012) by Charles Duhigg. I should definitely start some sort of journaling aimed at losing weight (a significant amount of weight.) Based on the studies Mr. Dunhigg sites, this journal does not necessarily have to be formal. I should probably attempting to note what I have been eating, but then it would take away from the desire to write. In other words, it seems like it would be fucking miserable to read. And it may be either way. I will admit that I have been eating like shit. I feel as though I have some sort of late-night-movie-watching-ridiculous-amount-of-food-eating disorder.

My habits are filthy. Reading this book truly helps lay out how to change the path, and I'm only about half way through. It is by no means the holy grail of self-help literature, but I'm more than happy to be reading the book. I have read a significant number of cool books over the last year. Malcolm Gladwell, Paul Ekman, Pressfield, The Walking Dead Compendiums, Edward Abbey, and more have enriched my life more so than when I first starting reading Daniel Quinn in high school.

This is one of the many reasons I've been physically lazy, but it's no excuse. I've also barely written over the last six months; unless it's required of me at school. However, that issue is more so about half laziness and half rediscovery of self. Meanwhile, many times over I make the excuse of rediscovery and stop writing. There is no rediscovery without writing. We often confuse our social media witticisms with practice, but that bullshit weakens the will. I'm not trying to be personable here. You can comment, talk shit, say hello, whatever, but all I am doing here is my work. I want to do things differently than in the past.

I digress. I feel as though an exercise journal may even be more beneficial than a food journal. Again however, I don't feel as though I'm going to do that kind of journal. I am working out at least twice a week, but I still need to stop being such a slob. The cigarettes. The cigarettes have to go as well.

Unedited draft.